i went for the last Herstory of 2008.
like, how can NEEKYTAN ever miss such an awesome party!?!?
i'm sucha fan. 100% attendance for all 12 parties this year =>
nth to be proud of. aint even that hardworking when it comes to work attendance and school attendance! hahaha

anyways, i went with a hopeful heart.
i reckoned it's gonna be the biggest and most enjoyable party of the year!!
and, i know she will be there.

unexpectedly while i was saying Hi to some friends, she popped out from nowhere and shocked me.
i wasnt mentally prepared to see her that fast!
you know, ive been missing her so so so so much i couldnt even imagine seeing her again.
i admit i was dumbstruck when i saw her face.
so i did what i do best - smile silly.
and as usual she smiled back.

MY GOD!
that smile I fell in love with at first sight months ago!
im not sure if anyone caught me blushing, but my hot cheeks told me i did. haha
but there was sth amiss.
i dunno what.
that smile is still as attractive as ever! that inscrutable smile =>
Just..... this weird feeling that's been churning in me

hmmmm.....
after tt i came to realise how stupid and forgetful i am.
it is CHANGE.
how could i ever let that slip my mind...
no wonder things felt different.
i dare to scream out loud that i still feel the same.
but she is no longer the same.
well, change is the only constant - no one's right or wrong to change.
i am having that initial sadness. The kind that you always have when you lose something that you treasure.
but seriously, nothing beats the feeling of having someone shouting FUCK OFF str8 in ur face, TWICE. fucking twice. even if it's meant to be a joke, it's really not funny ler.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz



aye.
enough of sad stuffs.
there are good parts abt the party too!
i wore sth that i dun usually wear.
got abit of attention here and there.
Nice Neighbour complimented me too. haha!
so shy!!
it's such a waste i always miss her at parties. damn it!
didnt manage to dance with her again last night. *nxt time*
Saw the usual gang again, finally.
Saw Neighbour again.
Saw lala!!!
haha, she's the highlight of the day




very good.
the pills are taking effect, hitting the sack now.
gg for xmas shopping for gift exchange later!

good nite,
my frens =>





i miss that sunshine,
i miss you.