another sleepless night.

another morning class.

another project meeting.

another long day @ work.





stomach working up again.
throat getting swollen again.










sick.











if getting sick and tired is an excuse for me to throw everything aside,
make me half-dead or paralysed pls.










took me sucha long time to understand trust.
so brittle...
so knotty...
so demanding...
yet when you have it, you can bring all kinds of relationships to a higher level.

but i think i've lost it.
it's pretty clear, who's standing by me and who's not.
who's worth my time and effort and who's not.
who should stay by my side and who should go.









oddly, im not surprised.
as if sth in me expected such things to happen.
and......
i dunno what i've done wrong to deserve this!!!!
i hate her but i hafta agree with what she said.
(i cant say what coz she'll know i hate her)








Dun even talk to me.
Coz im saying nothing.
Walls have ears.
Human tongues wag.








argh.
what-evaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
waste of my time and energy, really.
i need a break!
Kerr & Ling i really need you right NOW!!!!







i fell in love with purple.
no more RED