Infatuations never last.
Which is why I think a zillion times before I say "I like you".
I don't want to make the same mistake twice.
And, I don't want the same sad case to happen to me twice.
What I can feel is just an infatuation, maybe some loneliness and some curiosity.
Give yourself more time, ask yourself deeper questions, get more insight...
You will realise all these are just mistakes and illusions.
wake up!!!!