Ha!
I'm back again.
Aint feeling very good at the moment, gotta let things out.
At times I really wish I have the ability to read minds.
Your behaviour never fails to
bewilder me and it always leaves me feeling perplexed and super disturbed. Told ya I hate mind games (i'm too slow for that)... And I loathe the fact that some friends come to me only when they need a favour or they're expecting something from me.
I'm definitely agreeable to them! But the thought of
them thinking I'm just there to be
'used', makes me particularly uncomfortable.
You know how tiring it is to keep guessing...
Argh~!---------------------------------------------------------------Sometimes people seem to change their behaviour and ultimately their perceived personalities, for better or for worse. I've been wondering what our true personalities are. Or if there's such a thing in the first place.
Changing means a decision on one's part to do so. One can't change if one decides that that wasn't the way he/she should behave. So the fact that one had decided to change should mean that his or her "true" personality was predisposed to such behaviour.
But it could also be argued that the change comes from the external environment. The circumstances could have been the factor. Although it is a little romantic to think that we are nothing but a collection of experiences, it is hardly the case. I can't reconcile the fact that under the same circumstances, there are often different behavioural responses from people. The circumstances simply don't explain everything.
I realised that, when it comes to myself, previously undesirable behaviour are now at times, acceptable. I even amaze myself at the stuff I say when I don't care a shit about others. How much of an effect did nurture and nature had on my personality and everyone else's?
If I was all nurture, then I must have received some serious brainwashing to have started changing for the worse. If I was born this way, although I would feel less guilty about my lack of resistance to the change, I would still be innately evil. Sucks either way.
Does anyone knows who he or she truly is? Pardon the cliche - change seems to be the only constant.
