Re-hi, peeps!
Oh my, that opening sounds so IRC-ed. ha..
Anyway, yeah, I'm back! As in, I wanna go back to the cheery optimistic me. It's quite tough to have a sad face all day long..
It's been a tough week for me. Yeah, about the demise of my paternal grandfather.. I call him Ah Gong. I really wanna share with you exactly how I felt and what happened for the past week, but the whole thing's gonna be dreary, maybe I should skip that. But there's just one thing that I have to tell you. Coz it really has a big impact on me. Now whenever I think abt it, I can cry so hard you can't recognize me..
You know my ah gong used to live with my family when we were still staying at that 3-storey hse. It's really my favourite house because I can have a mahjong session in my own room, I can play mini-badminton with my sis in the living room. My ah gong loved that place too. He had a lot of friends ard that area because he would always walk to Chuan park for walks, and chit chat with other elderly. And we used to have a maid too. She would take care of my ah gong, keep him company, talk to him, cook for him, sometimes buy mcdonald's for lunch and eat with him. Cool huh.
Too bad it was a bad year for construction business, plus so many other distressing matters happened, so we had to move to a smaller place. My new place is so much smaller we don't need a maid anymore, actually we can't afford to have one. And my ah gong can't live with us anymore. If you have come to my house before, you should know there's this area with a dining table and a couple of sofa chairs right.. If you havent', just imagine a small area that can accommodate a dining table with 6 chairs + 2 small sofa chairs.. Yeah, I told my papa we can erect a wall there and have a small room for my ah gong, so he can live with us. My papa think so too, but on second thought, it's really freaking small! So small that it'll look like we're torturing ah gong and that place is so freaking stuffy. Plus, there's no one to take care of him and cook for him in the day. So........ He moved back to the old flat in Hougang.
6 days after my ah gong passed away, my papa who told me this.. but in chinese la..
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Papa: You know what big auntie told me?
Me: What?
Papa: On the day we had to move out of penshurst (road name of that 3-storey hse), ah gong cried you know.
Me: Huh!?
Papa: He really loved living with us. Big place, he got friends and Erna (our maid) to talk to him. And he loved you kids. Then you'll bring friends home too. He just liked company la.. And also because XXXXXXXXX (sorry, family secrets)
Me: Aiyoh.. *tears welling in eyes*
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Suddenly there're so many regrets in life.
*Cries*
See, you really should cherish people around you. You're gonna regret it someday, if you don't.
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The world doesn't stop to grieve for you.
I needa get on with life. I needa plan for my future. I need a JOB!!!
I'm going to the career fair tmr with the steamboat group. Ha...
The steamboat group is in fact my classmates.. 6 of them. Namely, Sexymama, Huimin, Boon Kee, Regina, Poying and Rainus a.k.a Jennifer Low (LOL).
Steamboat was great. I just kept eating beef. Damn, the calories I burnt this afternoon from jogging has come back, and with addition fats! doh..
I think my face still look kinda sad/sian. Sorry, can't help it. It's been like this for the past week.. And I keep thinking about that matter my papa told me about..
It's ok, don't worry, I'll be fine. =>
I just tagg-ed at everyone's board this - It's holiday time! Yeah, I've unofficially graduated. End of exams, end of lectures, end of school...! But I gotta spend my time wisely. You know, do meaningful things, spending quality time with everyone - friends, family, relatives, elderly. I've learnt that Time is a crucial element in life. In fact, it IS Life. If you keep saying you don't have time, you're not living life man. But if you have so much time that you needa kill/waste it, you're really wasting life away. So, get down to do sth GOOD~
Do I sound kinda weird? After a week of not seeing me, not talking to me, not chatting with me blah... I dunno. I feel that I've changed. Maybe physically.. More haggard face, messier hair, and definitely a fatter physique. -___-'''
Nah.. For real, I meant mentally, emotionally and psychologically. I won't say I've grown a lot. But I can tell you, I've learnt so much more about perceiving life from other viewpoints. The family has become closer, and I found out some dirty secrets.....................
Alright, I shan't preach any further. I'll tell you something else.
Fort Minor rocks!
I went to the concert on 01 March 2006. Ha.. The day I finished my exams, but most of my friends still have another paper the nxt day... LOL~
Yeah, the concert was totally awesome. Fabulous. Superb. Amazing. Wonderful. Incredible. Mind-blowing. Impressive. And what else.. Simply the BEST concert ever! It's a shame I din get the standing ticket, coz me and Herman thought there'll be so many ppl getting it, and we can't queue early for the good places, so...... ARGH! We got the seated ones instead. Damn.. It turned out that the area used was only half of the normal indoor stadium... sigh. But it was HIGH. Small place, small crowd, but freaking HIGH. We got seating tickets but we were standing and rocking like, 9/10 of the show! HA! M.Shinoda is fking cool I tell you. So is S.O.B. Buy Fort Minor's album! Go! Go! Go! I regretted not buying a tee shirt man.. But a freaking merchandise tee costs $35... No money..... And the stupid dorito-look-a-like dorito cost $6! A small orange juice cost $3! AH!!!
Luckily the concert was great, made me so happy. Vented all my emotions that night. Waving, rocking, singing, shouting, laughing, watever! I'm gg to get a standing ticket for Linkin Park's concert no matter what.. Even if I'm on crutches!
Oooops... Bed-time... I shall continue tmr. Maybe tell you abt the career fair and plans for my future.. Ha..
adiós
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